FINDING A PURPOSE
My life has changed beyond recognition since this illness. I had suffered many illnesses before some serious but always fought back. I put on a persona of coping well with this FND when really inside I am just a shadow of my former self. I miss ME. Before if someone told me I was not capable of doing something I would be more determined to do it. Now, I need help with even basic things. The life I had has gone. The future my husband and I had planned now the family are grown up is not possible. I have always been seen as a strong person who could cope with anything emotionally. I can still pretend to be that person, but inside I feel differently. The one thing I have always found throughout my life is that people would come to me with their problems for support and advice and that is something I can still do for the few I still have contact with. On the FND Hope facebook support group I try to be as supportive as I can to other members. This helps me feel that I still have a purpose. I can help people and that in turn helps me deal with this condition myself.
I am a 57 year old intelligent woman who has had a happy life and responsible jobs of authority and never suffered trauma or physcological problems. I am a wife, mother and grandmother and I, Brenda, have a Multi-Functional Movement Disorder.